A messy start

At the age of 25 I had a successful career as a Registered Nurse in a prestigious hospital, I had recently gotten engaged to my boyfriend of over 6 years and I was also absolutely miserable. I remember Christmas of 2017, my fiancé was in the hospital after falling off a horse and breaking his wrist. My parents drove down to visit me in Miami and they asked me a very important question “are you happy?”. I realized I hadn’t asked myself that–probably ever, and no I was definitely not happy.

I believe that when God makes me uncomfortable it is a call to action. Well damn, I was uncomfortable as fuck so I made moves. I broke off my engagement, sold (almost) everything I owned, packed up 2 suitcases and booked my one-way flight to New York City to begin my first contract as a Travel nurse.

This was circa 2018, I was physically out-off shape (I hadn’t exercised since high-school), co-dependent on a toxic partner, in a state of depression and to top it off we were drowning in debt. I wouldn’t call my big move to NYC a dream come true, at the time it felt my only exit plan, I was desperate. I didn’t necessarily want to leave Miami, I just wanted to not be who or what I had become.

I had dreams of living in New York City since I was a little girl, but I had given up on those dreams. I’m not sure when, I just know that it seemed out of reach and unrealistic until I hit rock bottom. So here I was in 2018, single in the city during the holiday season, a dream come true. Once the adrenaline and nostalgia wore off I realized that it would be impossible to run away from all of my problems, because as I soon learned, you take yourself with you everywhere you go. It was only when I was at my absolute breaking point when I realize nobody would be coming to save me–I had to save myself.

There really is no running away from your habits, lifestyle choices and decisions you make on a daily basis–those are literally the ingredients that determine what meal you will be having the next day, the next year. –Me

I had many paradigm shifts during my time in NYC. I realized that I was actually toxic, from the foods I put into my body to the lack of respect for myself. For the first time in my life I took full accountability for everything that good and bad that had happened to me up until that point. I will later realize that holding myself accountable does not need to include shaming myself. 

It was in 2019 everything shifted. I welcomed God back into my life. I starting having a spiritual practice. I began tending to my body by exercising, doing yoga, and paying attention to what I eat. I acknowledged my behaviors and emotional immaturity in relationships and in my life (took me many more years to forgive myself for this). I developed my mind through powerful loving connections and meditation.  I paid off my debts. Self-care is powerful. Self love is powerful.

Since 2018 I have taken over 11 travel nurse contracts in Albuquerque, New York City, Las Vegas, Los Angeles, San Fransisco and Seattle. I have been able to take 2-4 months every year traveling the world. I am so grateful for the opportunities I have had to travel. I am even more grateful to/for the people who have supported me along the way, I cannot imagine doing life without your love.

Thank you for inspiring me and allowing me to inspire you,